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Two Paragraphs About My Mother

Monday, March 2nd, 2009

She weighed 72 pounds and was bent nearly double by osteoporosis and the effort to draw breath into lungs ravaged by emphysema. She had both a bad end and an unfulfilled life.

Yet even in the final days, even as her breathing worsened and a stroke took her one of her eyes, even with her oxygen tubes and her dodgy memory, even–on the worst and coldest nights, with frost on the window–the light of her shone bright and warm, wavering only a little from the sheer fatigue of winding down; her pluck and cheer and “hello, lovey” greetings and slangy “I’m an old bag” banter making her a favorite of the nurses.

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Survived By

Saturday, February 28th, 2009

A heavy stew of grief.

My mother died 29 days ago.

Survived by my father. Survived by his brutish narcissism, his meanness. Survived by his demons, by his lifetime of bad behavior. Survived by the dementia, strangely pedantic, that entangled all of us in unrelenting craziness in the last three years of my mother’s life.

All the old traumas inflicted anew.

Survived by me. Grieving. Angry. Unmoored.

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